Would It Make A Difference?

Would it make a difference if I was prettier?
would it make a difference if i was taller? thinner? with bigger breasts?
Would it make a difference if i was a virgin?
would it make a difference if i was a slut? if i did everything you wanted?
would it make a difference if i swallowed?
Would it make a difference if i was religious?
would it make a difference if i went to church? if i saved myself for marriage?
Would it make a difference if i hadn't slept with you on the first night? would you like me more? respect me more?

What do i have to do to make you fall in love with me? the way you made me fall in love with you?

Winter Mist

What did you say? That it is for the best? Is it really? The numbness and the emotion is for the best? I don't believe.
All that Sweet talk.... No I definitely don't believe you, all the hush hush calm me down and threats that fell from your lips I don't believe you, it's not my idea of love it's not my idea of life.
This can't be what you meant, should I replay your words to you? this is not right it is not the way it is supposed to be, supposed to look. You cloud and fog everything, you block my eyes I rub them. This can't be happening.
The Winter Mist is settling down it clouds and fogs everything, just like you. Just like you. Or me? I get confused my mind is fogged I can not think clearly. What am I doing here? the dust has only just settled why am I here?
What did you say? that you only meant well? that this isn't what we need? what you need? what I need? No. not what I need. All I need is the quiet and the calm. Hide and Seek. My favourite game. Will you take that from me as well? Hide and Seek the game of a million years, always better in the Winter Mist where everything is clouded.
Where am I? What have you done? I need to rub my eyes you can't have done that. Can't have said that. You love me, you live breath and feel me.
Your hands on my neck, face, breast.
You can't have said that you love me, live breath and feel me. Why would you say that?
The Winter Mist has found you too sweeping away my favourite game, hiding the oldest of things.
Have you found me yet? Hide and Seek. Should I count to ten before coming out? Hide and Seek.
1..... Have you found me yet? This is for the best i will count to ten for you.

2...... how about now can you see me yet? all your sweet talk, I don't believe you, how could you say those things to me?

3..... you still haven't found me yet? No. If you don't find me by five you will never find me. I am too well hidden for you to discover do not be threatened I will come out for you.

4...... Nothing? well you have one more chance I am not that far away, the dust is falling on me you have until 5

5. No you have not found me you will not find me. This can't be happening you can't have done that it is not you or me or us. it's not what i think of life or love or us you have until ten and i will come out

6 stop searching it is ridiculous now you will not find me the mist has hidden me well.

7Nothing at all will help you help me i am beyond your light beyond your hand. Hide and seek in the Winter mist

8 sit still and you will see me I am coming to you, you will see me soon

9 what did you say? that you only meant well? that its all for the best? that isn't what we need? huh? what did you say? can you see me now?

10 Can you see me now?